I like to pretend that imaginary people are watching me from cameras. Life is easy to live if you are acting out your life's story for a live audience. It makes me feel important. I am worth something if people take notice of me.

When I set this system up in my head, I thought it was foolproof. Until I realized they'd see everything. Humiliating things. Fuck ups.

Now I can't seem to put a pause on them and they are always watching me.